oh hey there.

you guys, i guess, if anybody is still out there....

i've been absent for way too long.

i don't really have any excuses, just to say that my blogger mind was turned off.

i have been a little preoccupied.

and as much as i still obsess over really great decor and junk (hello pinterest, i was never far from there), i just wasn't focused enough to bring you anything worthwhile.

i still thought about here, and you, and missed it occasionally but....

i'm actually expecting a lil baby. in mid-march!

and i'm like, insane excited! (and very insanely insane nervous.)

there is alot of back story behind the nervous part.

but i try so hard to just focus, and my husband too, on the excited.

starting a family hasn't been the easiest road for the two of us.

there were road blocks, then ups, then downs, and finally, after a goooood long time, we are here.

i am 16 weeks and things are looking pretty great!

lil nugget is healthy (as far as we can tell), she/he's passed all the tests so far, and!! the sickness is finally letting up. i still get waves of gross, but honestly, i kinda cherish(ed) it.

being morning (noon, evening, night, middle of the night) sick meant that my baby was healthy and sending out tons of prego hormones that in turn made me feel sick. so, when i felt sick, i felt good about it.

it's weird, i know.

this is the first real "hey!! i'm having a baby!" for me. and it's a little stress inducing, honestly.

if you follow me on instagram, i guess i haven't been keeping it a secret there, but facebook still isn't any wiser. and i actually think i like it that way, at least for now. (here comes a tangent.) i just don't like fb. and i'm sure you do, bc i'm sure i'm the only one who doesn't, but we just don't get along very well. so i side-eye it and keep a little distance.

my husband and i have been so nervous (more so in the beginning, less and less so now but it's definitely still there) that things weren't going to end the way we hope and pray. when a women gets preg, she's like hell yeah. in 9 months i'll have a baby to hold! but sometimes that doesn't happen for whatever God's reasons are, and it smarts like you wouldn't even believe. and so.

when the miracle of life happens again, your naivety has been robbed and you're cautious. even more than, you're down right scared.

we didn't even tell our families until we were 10.5 weeks. and close friends not until 12, not even my besties! and everyone else, we've been trickling out the good news since.

and there's no hiding it now with a belly that looks like a chipotle burrito and a half!

but that's one tough secret to keep in the summer time. seriously. fruity cocktails and teeny bikinis are lurking around every corner!

so. along with the nerves, has been my reluctance to purchase anything for baby.

until today!

hoorah!

after work i'm headed to pick up this beauty.

thanks, friend craigslist.

to snuggle and feed and rock my little nugget in for days and nights on end.

vintage and quirky and wooden perfectness,

that fits in perfectly in both of my secret pinterest boards. one girl, and one boy.

i think this was the beginning and now, maybe the flood gates have been opened?! ha.

and in true fashion, the whole time i was writing this, i was thinking to myself... gosh. i probably shouldn't be doing this. so if i could ask you for anything, just keep us in your prayers. hopefully God's plans and our plans are aligned and come mid-march, i'll meet him or her.

and so there you have it.

a nice little essay for my first day back in like 2 months.

:)

JILL

flowers for friday #161

you guys!

i hope you had the most pleasant of long weekends.

i sure did.

i can't believe summer's come to an end, but i have to say

I AM SO EXCITED for fall.

seriously.

i've never ever ever been the one to wish summer away

but i am all geeked up for what's to come.

now here's to a short work week :)

JILL

{flowers via fabulous k}

the coveteurrr.

i am inspired daily by the coveteur.

i know these ladies bring out their best stuff but gosh, it's amazing stuff. the shoes, jewels, the clothes.

color, pattern... awesome-sauce.

if you don't already go there, i might recommend it.

and in case you don't know how to get there, go here.

how was your weekend?

JILL

flowers for friday #160

and here we find ourselves again, friday.

thank the lord.

hope you have a terrific weekend!

JILL

boys and girls.

get it...?

blue and pink. boys and girls.

dumb :)

but i am kinda having a moment with these 2 colors.

a true saturated blue and a true saturated pink.

oh hot pink, let me count the ways.

sidenote: after all you people will be over and sick of neon, especially le hot pink, i won't be. just so you know, you know?

in large doses, small doses and medium ones in between, i dig it.

that third picture is so ballsy. my home is colorful, but images like those make me crave more.

viva hot pink!

JILL

{images via: vintageluxe tumblr, the aestate tumblr, cloud.feedly, and glitterguide.}

flowerS for friday #158 and #159

oh hey there.

call it my summer vacation?

i didn't mean to be gone that long.

nor did i do anything worthy of a 'summer vacation'.

but here we are.

i am soaking up the last bit of summer...

homegrown tomatoes!!!

i could eat them like an apple.

i hope you have great plans for the weekend.

see you monday!!

JILL

{via sundayinbed tumblr, and martha stewart}

flowers for friday #157

friday monday!!

so i've been gone.

and this is a sentance i have been saying far too much on here.

and i'd rather just not say it, but i've been really uninspired.

maybe i'm desensitized with all this beautiful gorgeous stuff all over to look at.

i have my theories.

but instead of forcing anything, i'm just stepping away until i'm inspired again.

this weekend was the lowest key weekend i've had in a long long time.

i clocked a lot of doing nothing time.

it was great!

and yesterday was a devious maids marathon and you better believe i watched it. all of it.

so now...

not sure when i'll be back but i will be.

until then.

JILL